Bit of a different post from me but bare/bear (?!) with me, a thank you is in here somewhere π»
I've had a really difficult few months which has been no secret to you guys. I just wanted to share a little reflection here...
When a life changing event happens, you often have to actively choose to keep going. To keep getting out of bed and to keep breathing. Having to make this choice and deal with your fluctuating emotions is absolutely exhausting. You have to pick what you have the energy for and start saying no to things that before you would have just done to help out or to keep the peace. It is so easy to let guilt get at you and to get overwhelmed by a seemingly insignificant trigger.
I've learnt to really focus on little things. To zoom in on little aspects, rather than being swamped by the whole situation. The smile from a stranger in the street or a simple "thank you" when you let someone go in front of you. Genuinely, some days, these little things made me realise that there is kindness out there and gave me hope π KEEP BEING KIND!
I've had points where I just didn't know how to keep getting through the day. The real difficulty of it all is knowing that you are the one who has to pull yourself through, no matter how many people are around you, it is such an all-consuming and lonely feeling π©
Thankfully, I've got such amazing people in my life that have kept me strong, been patient with me and kept me laughing throughout. I will never ever be able to thank them enough - that includes SOOO many of you on here who check-in with me and offer me advice β€οΈ
JUST A BIG FUDGING THANK YOU β¨
I am now taking this opportunity to look around at how far I have come and how lucky I am that I am here and I am safe πͺ
EDIT: Bloody reel went sideways for some reason π Here's me trying to be all serious!
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